228/365: Shade of My Former Self

It is easy to tabulate all that I am not.
If I am terrible, I abdicate responsibility.
If I am terrible, any quality is good quality.
If I am terrible, your affection must be true.
I am so afraid of going on unloved
that I would fail every day of my life
just so I could rise to a lesser occasion
and look like I won.

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