I Might Be So Big

me

I sat on the toilet in my mother's bathroom

and measured myself against the cupboard doors.

My knees used to come to the hinges

but now passed the door handle.

The counter I used to cool my neck against on hot days

when I leaned into it for a few extra moments of quiet

now only came to mid-chest.

I was so small then

when I thought I was so big.

I had no idea.

I hope that still stands,

that physical perspective is what's blinded me.

I hope I am now really very small,

and that I still have no idea,

how, one day, I will be so big.